W.E.A.K.
Weak. I Felt weak all of a sudden.
Whatta day. Let’s start from the very beginning. I woke up at around 8am. I immediately jumped out of my pajamas put on some decent clothing and went out to our tailor. I think I forgot to tell you that last time when I was almost late for school, I found out that my skirt was not ironed so I tried to do it myself. And by the word “tried” I mean I accidentally burned it. So, goodbye skirt! I had to ask the tailor to make me a new one and I am so excited. I had her sew a different cut for me for a change.
Letters. I know I’ve told you that there was this musical play that my class is currently producing. With that, we need budget. We decided to seek the help of some of the most renowned organizations here in the city and some of the government officials as well. I delivered some of the letters today and god, it made me really tired.
Auditions. This morning I have decided to audition to be one of the DJ’s or news anchors for our school’s radio station. Confidence? I had it in me. But I don’t know what happened because when I was already there I didn’t audition. Bullshit!
Old films. I thought we were not going to meet for our film appreciation class. Turned out I was wrong. I just found out that my term grade for Film App is 85. So-so. I really didn’t care even if it would be 75. Who would? And the worst part? Our teacher let us watch a very old film. Black and white. Casablanca. Boo-hoo.
Home. Here I am, in front of my computer. I can’t generalize my feeling right now but it seems like I feel happy but I feel empty. I know it’s weird. Let’s face it, I’m weird. I received a message in Facebook from one of my BFF’s. She told everyone (close friends) that she is already committed to a relationship with the guy he’s dating, the guy that I don’t really like for her. He’s just not good enough for her, if you know what I mean. Anyway, it’s her decision anyway and I have no right to get in the way. I should be happy for her but how come I’m not? I have this strange feeling that I think I’m becoming jealous.
Jealous. I think I have become jealous of the feeling of being in love. I am in love, always have been. But in love with a definite person of the opposite sex? I guess not. I miss that feeling. You know, when you catch yourself smiling for no reason at all…head over heels! But there is still a single cell in my system which says, “Hey! You’re gonna find him someday! Don’t fret.” Oh well, I really hope so and he better come soon!.
Wish me luck on this book I’m reading. I’m about to finish it already. I’ve decided to go back to reading romance novels, by the way. I thought it would be a very good distraction to keep me away from all the harsh realities of life.
TTFN!
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