I’m not affected.

Much has happened during the last couple of days…


1.) My letter to the Vice Chancellor for Administration has been approved.


Good thing I’m friends w/ the new VCA. We crossed roads at school one time and he told me that when he saw my name on the letter, he approved it right away. Well, holy!!! Relations really help. Good ones, that is.


2.) I’ve finally finished the letters for the play.


Here’s the thing, when it comes to proposals, approval letters and all sorts of corporate communication stuff, it has got to be who has to do it. I actually don’t know why my classmates really put me into these kinds of things. They say I’m good at it. I kind of disagree. I’ve been busy producing very impressive letters for solicitation and sponsorship for our play. It has made me think a lot for the past couple of weeks and we’re about to release them next week already. The letter is already reproduced and about to be given out to their respective recipients.


3.) Exams.


Ugh! Tell me about it. Exams are really stressful. The others are very easy like I could have just walked into the examination room without studying and the results would be in flying colors. But there were really some who made me think like my brain matter were scattered on the floor. I’ve told you this several times I guess. Advertising, it just kills me! Journalism? Oh, I don’t know anymore. My grades are hanging by a thread and the worst part is, I don’t care!


4.) Sad movies always make me cry.


So today was a blast (excluding the exam part). My aunt, whom I consider as one of my BFF’s asked me out to go see a movie with her. We watched Sa’Yo Lamang which was about a problematic Filipino family. I cried a river. I always do.


5.) Dinner w/ friends. Yippee!


Every year we make it a point to see each other once or twice and just talk about random things. Tonight we talked about the usual: who’s virgin and who’s not?... What’s new? And by then I’ve had a dozen of realizations. Brace yourself.


I think I’ve had enough rest. Physical rest has been there. But the heart, oh the heart has had enough rest. I’ve been having suitors for the past years and there were a lot. Not to brag but I lost track counting already. I’ve been thinking that I won’t commit myself into a relationship because I thought I wasn’t ready. But now I’ve finally decided. I am ready because I decide to be. And I swear to all the saints in heaven that I will be having a relationship before the year ends. Swear to God.


Also, a friend told me about something. It was when I realized that I don’t care about “it” anymore. And I am so glad. I thought my soul was going to be impaired again. But no, it won’t happen… at least not anymore. I’ve learned.
Now, about the “V” word. I’m still debating with myself if I’m already to let go of it. See, there’s no question about want. We’ve all been wanting to lose it since pubes. But I just don’t want to do it with just anybody. I know you know what I mean.


Going back. I just don’t care about it anymore. Bottom line is, I’m happy. My friends make me happy. I don’t know what I would do without them.