TRUE LOVE'S GONNA HAVE TO WAIT

        i honestly think that im emotionally disturbed right now...yes, no kidding...

        i don't know why im feeling this way but this is my very first time to have this kind of feeling...a stupid feeling...omigod, i kinda need a councilor for this...

       okay, well, i guess i

just kinda expected too much...tsk3x...that's what's difficult, you

know...expecting...because failed expectations turn to

disappointments....you know that feeling wherein you feel that the

person you're with is already "THE ONE" and suddenly, life snap backs at you and you realize that he is not "THE ONE"...hmmmph....but then, you continue to hope and wish that he "WILL BE the one" ....you get your hopes up but you watch them fall everytime...

       but how should i react

on this???how should i feel???i've been crying for so long and it looks

like im back with the unconditional love thingie....loving without

expecting love in return...that's it...however, it hurts!!!!it so damn

hurts!!!you see the person everyday yet you don't get to say what you

want to say...love? its really kind of complicated...indeed, love

hurts....because where there is love, there is pain....maybe this is

the very reason why a number of people dont engage in

relationships...it's because they are afraid to get hurt...how selfish

of them!how selfish of them to think only of themselves...and what?

they all end up unhappy in the end...they end up unhappy because they

don't get to be with the one they love since they didnt take the

risk...and yes., love is a gamble...

       are you just gonna play

safe or are you willing to step up to the challenge? if yes, good for

you...if not...well, i guess you will end up forever single...you will

forever be afraid of getting hurt...

        sometimes,

i cry watching children with wounds or bruises in their knees...because

when i was a child i was in a hurry to grow up and fall in love...but

now that i've finally fallen, i wanna go back to being an innocent

child, knowing nothing about love...because i realized that it is

better to heal a wounded knee than to heal a broken heart...

       it would take time to

heal this wounded heart of mine...i honestly think that it would take

more than a year for my recovery....love is unfair...you tend to

love...without any assurance of getting any love back....

        i dont know what to do......but i think...true love's just gonna have to wait...

with tears,

*KAMZ*