Take Me or Leave Me

It’s has never been easy to please everybody. Look, this blog post goes out to all of my detractors out there. I don’t really care if you guys will come across this; it’s just that my tolerance level for crap has already reached its quota and my system can’t take more of it any longer. To defend myself, I am solely expressing my opinion and any of you are free to do likewise if you have outlets such as a blog or whatnot, no holds barred. So, here it goes.

Ever since the start of the school year, that means since June last year, I have never feigned any of my emotions, nor have I shunned the random expression of my opinions. From what I can remember, I was never a bluff. I was humbly “me”. I have always been the crazy-wise-vivacious-brutally frank kind of “me”. I don’t think I’ve changed. If so, hypothetically speaking, what could have prompted the possible change? Nothing peculiar happened to my life except for the fact that life has been giving me so many lemons that sometimes I stop and forget to smell the flowers but, despite that, I swear to god that it has never been my intention to hurt anyone. However, some people think otherwise.

I admit that I am also at fault sometimes because I say some things which are not supposed to be said- me and my big mouth. But I can affirm, with all sincerity that those are mere jokes, said with zero percent ulterior motive. Come to think of it, why would I say things to hurt you? What would it profit me to hurt your feelings? It’s non-lucrative.

I tried to de-escalate the circumstances by being sympathetic and all that but it seems like my struggles were useless. It’s just difficult to look at a person differently when you had so many memories together. I am exuding with love in my heart, although not romantically but I just love to love and I am a person who hates to hate because hating is a waste of my precious time. All these bad vibes are so new to me because I’ve never really been used to clashes and misapprehensions and I believe that everything can be patched up over time. You know what they say, if there’s a will, there’s a way.

Here’s the thing, if you hate me, I wouldn’t care. But please, if you really hate me, don’t treat me like you love me because you’re generating the confusion to yourself. Let’s associate the situation to food. You can’t possibly swallow the food that you hate because if you force yourself to do so, you will eventually puke. So if you can’t swallow it, how much more digest it? Please, do yourself a favor and stop being a plastic. If you hate me, say it right in front of my face and spare yourself from the trouble of going around spreading all the negativity.

Just a little proposition, hating somebody can do you no good so stop it. You will only get annoyed and exasperated everytime you see the person.  But prior to all of that, look at yourself in the mirror first and ponder upon some pertinent matters. Do you think you are perfect that you are indispensible?  You think you haven’t done anything wrong, ever, ever, ever? If the answer is yes, wow! You must be canonized.

It’s a good thing I have some really honest and upright people around me who barrage me with their love and support. They always tell me to stay positive and just concentrate on the good vibes. I’ve got my family and my friends who back me up in all of my endeavors and they take me for what I am. Here are a few lines from my “current favorite song”, Take Me or Leave Me:

Take me for what I am,

who I was meant to be

And if you give a damn,

take me, baby, or leave me.

It’s my favorite song because it encapsulates how I feel right now. I am not changing my behavior or attitude because that’s who I am and there are actually people who love me for what I am. So, to those who despise me, you can either take me as I am or not at all, no doubts, no limits, no reservations.

My resolution is to avoid negative people because they are only vexations to my flamboyant life. Life goes on for me. You know what they say, “When life gives you lemons, make lemonade”. It’s just a matter of perspective and I see it as part of God’s greater plan.