Dream Come True?

I don't know. Since I was in my elementary years, it has always been my dream to join a cheering competition. I mean, the real one. You know, freshmen vs. sophomores vs. juniors vs. seniors, that kind of thing and when I was in high school (my freshmen year to be exact) I also joined a cheer dance thingy which was inter-house (yep, we got house divisions in my school, Harry Potter style). But it wasn't that much of a competition. I mean, it was for me, it's just that, they didn't announce the winners (good thing...haha!).

So early this morning, I had my first cheer dance competition ever. NSTP Cluster A...lol...Laugh all you want. It wasn't even a "REAL" cheer dance competition. I know I sound funny.

We rehearsed for a few days and the final performance was today. It was really weird. We were like lechon being heated under the heat of the sun and when i went home, my skin was already several shades darker. No biggie. Ano ang ginagawa ng glutathione, right?

And just for the record, I had fun....a lot, that is! We didn't win though, i can't believe it..haha! And just so you know, I won't do it EVER. again. Haha! Regrets?

*princess sophie*

- tired and sleepy-

Weird but True

INSTRUCTIONS: Go to Google and type in quotation marks, your name, and then "likes to" (ex. "charles likes to").  Type in the first ten things that come up and repost in your own blog. Or you can post it in the comments too!

1. Sophia likes to keep it  covered

2. Sophia likes to dance

3. Sophia likes to combine the use of solarplates....(wtf!)

4. Sophia likes to play basketball

5. Sophia likes to be tickled....(so not!)

6. Sophia likes to watch movies, run, read, and spend time with her two chihuahuas...(ooookayyyy!...i don't even have chihuahuas...)

7. Sophia likes to do yoga with mom

8. Sophia likes to express herself

9. Sophia likes to deliver information in a more entertainingfashion....(true!...haha!)

10. Sophia likes to socialize....

My Sembreak Officially Starts Today!

Yep! I know that we, Lasallians are supposed to have our sembreak starting on Friday. However, I dont have any exams left anymore and so, im here all alone at home watching old DVD movies just to kill time. I even bought DVD series of some TV shows so that I would be pre-occupied within the coming days. I really want to be busy or at least act like I'm busy because I'm really no good at being idle. The old adage "Idle minds covet evil thoughts" has been very evident in my life these past few years. Whenever I was idle, I couldn't help but think of impure thoughts or shall we call them "evil?". Having said this, I came up with a line-up of all the activities that I should do during semestral break. I know that the sem break would be good for  a few days only but I'm sure I could keep up and get myself time to accomplish useful stuff. And so, here are some of the things that i ought to do:

1. the portfolio

- Students who are planning to proceed to AB Communication or Mass Communication as we know it are required to pass a portfolio (yup, just like a model). With this, I would have to make habukay with all my old stuff since kindergarten. Omigod! This will be very tiring and all but I really hope I could get started because I think that the portfolio-making-kind-of-thing would be very worth it.

2. burn some fat

-I'm starting to become obese! Yeah, right, just a little exaggerated over there but I mean it, I am not getting any thinner. Maybe its because of all the food at the food court- such a wide variety to choose from. Sometimes, I even get dizzy just deciding on which particular snack or food item I should buy. See? And way back when i was in high school, I only ate two meals a day- the most but now that I'm  already in college, I eat all three meals with in-between snacks. I also used to exercise. Well now, I don't! I think I should go back to my old lifestyle, not the one in which I ate less, what i meant was the exercising thingy. I should really lose some weight and just for the record, when I was in high school, i weighed 96lbs and now? Well, a total of 98! That's quite a lot! Grrr...

3. meditate

-Well, just so you know, I have this once-a-week stress release thing for myself. Every week (once a week, usually the last day of the week) I listen to songs of love and healing and cry for a while. I started doing this when i was in my senior year in high school when I had too much stress, disappointments, and every bit of emotion you could possibly imagine. I think that this is a very helpful thing to do since I can feel a somewhat "cleansing" of the soul. Not that my soul is very dirty or something, this is just for health purposes, emotional health, that is. Through this, I am able to talk to myself and to God as well. Weird you may say, but i really think of it as very thereapeutic, no kidding. You should try it too

4. clean up my closet

-I haven't cleaned my closet lately. I bet, there are already lot's of clutter in it. I really spend time cleaning my closet every once in a while because I change a lot. Yes, a lot. Sometimes, I just can't decide which clothes to wear and I end up dress-rehearsing inside my room. It's like playing dress up games and due to this, I make lots of kalat in my room. I find it inevitable and kinda normal for typical teenage girls like me to do such so, nothing to worry, just that my mom freaks out everytime she gets iniside my room. So, im gonna clean it. That's a promise!!!

So that's my list. That's only tentative because I still got some things to add to that list as the days go by. I'll just keep you updated.

Ciao and gudnyt! Mwah!

*princess Sophie*

parang kailan lang=(

i couldn't possibly think of all the happenings that had passed through my life these past months...just when was it that i got so chilly and excited to go to college and now, here i am on the first day of exams on the end term...which means that the semester is nearing to its end.

it pains me, knowing that i would be doing the entire enrollment process all over again...wtf!...college is really a bit different from high school...different-good...you know, the fact that you are allowed to have nine absences in each subject...some teachers don't even check the attendance at all...lucky me!!!...another thing is when you just stand up and go outside when you don't feel like attending the class anymore...and of course, the sweetest thing is that you have break times....whew!...in high school, all i had was recess and lunch break...oh no no no...time was very limited...but now, we (my friends and I) have a lot of time to go to places we want to go to....we can go to the mall and watch movie in between classes but we never fail to remember that we still have class and go back to school.

back to the exams...like what I've said, today is the first day of the end term exams....I'm supposed to take a total of  8 exams but because of my diligence+pasipsip=exemptions!!!.....hahahhah...im gonna have to get 2 exams only...well,,i mean 3 exams...because in English, they don't have exemptions...migod...i cant take this....i mean, i struggled and persevered just to get high grades in English for the first two terms and this is what i get? or what i don't get? rather.....but i really have no choice...i dnt wanna make sugod the English teachers....ive changed...haha...

the exams that im taking are only math and science...(plus English)...in gen.sci or science, you may call it...my average was just 89 instead of 90...tsk tsk tsk......i lacked a single point for me to be able to avail of exemptions....in math on the other hand...i only got 88...too bad....nevertheless, im happy having been surpassed the first semester of college....and for the record, i still have 9 semesters left...boohoo!

and just an add on: i miss my tsubanitz family.....huhu...

*princess Sophie*

THIS IS SO HILARIOUS!!!

omigod!

September 10, 2008...10:37pm...wednesday

i just had a great chat with my aunt and my dad tonight, i mean, although i was kind of disappointed because of the inconvenience that my yahoo messenger account has caused me...you see, when you log in to your account, the YM bar is supposed to appear immediately and automatically by itself, right? well, in my computer, it doesn't...and it just pisses me off!!!

anyway, going back...after i had a chat with the people i love, i scanned my ebook in my phone and just read a few pages. well, i guess im already tired of reading, i already missed classes just because i wanted to read this novel. i know. i know. what i did was totally over the borderline and i assure you, its not gonna happen again.

and so, i visited the homepage of my multiply site. and i came across the "dear diary" part of my page. this is the part where i wrote my thoughts, desires, emotions, or shall i say, :"BLOG" for short. i just don't know what exactly was it that had gotten into me but i actually read all my blog entries. yes, ALL. while i was reading, there were a lot of images that flashed behind my mind. it was like watching a slide show of photos.  i was laughing all the time because my blog entries were just so hilarious. i have read different stories about what had happened to me and i kind of pictured out myself while writing those entries. in some entries, i was blissful, in some, i was tired, in some, i was disappointed, in some, i was bitter, in love, depressed and almost every emotion there is on earth, its like i had all of them in my blog.

i just can't believe that i used to write about cheesy stuff. i mean, all the yucky-love-stuff..eww...im allergic to that now. hahaha..yeah,right..laugh all you want. i am writing here tonight to inform all of you that i really intend to delete those blog posts..however, if ever i would....i would have nothing to laugh about in the future...hahaha...i say that i consider these as entertainment material....i rili cant believe it.! i was so stupid before...darn!!!

hahaha...however, i won't stop...im gonna keep on posting not only for me but for my future children (im so futuristic)...im gonna let them read these stuff to inform them how stupid their mother has been...hahaha...i just can't help but laugh my ass out on what i had just read...its so hilarious. i mean, the fact that i don't feel the same way anymore....

well, this is what's so good about being human. things change. and i love it. i love change.

i think you should too. feel it. love it. embrace it.

bwaahhahhaa.....nytie!!!smoochy2!

*princess sophie*

it's time to make my own rules!!! Haha!!!

 

  yup, you heard that right...but

maybe you don't know what im talking about...well, just so you

know...im talking about college life...an acquaintance of mine said

that in high school, there would be so many rules...but in college,

well, YOU MAKE YOUR OWN RULES! the moment i heard my friend say these words, my excitement grew even more...

 

  because, lets admit it..high school was pretty tough right? its fun though... it had all the spices to be a complete dish!...sooo perfectly imperfect...and

also, many of my colleagues said that i will be experiencing an awful

lot of changes...like for an instance...in high school, we hear

malicious gossip about other people and it automatically startles our

senses...like, who's

with whom?, she hooked up with this guy....this teacher is having an

affair with a student...this student is adopted...she is a virgin and

she is not!...he is gay....bla bla bla...sure, these stuff were shockers for us back then....but in college, ay, kiber man sa chika!!! we'd get used to it...you bet! hahhahah....

    but, wait! dont get me wrong...these

stuff im talking about here are just experience of ppol i know who have

been or are in college...but then again, i assure you, the contents of

this blog is first hand information, not just heresays...

   i can't wait to see if they're right! hahahhahaah...just a couple of weeks to go and im on it...

here i am

here's a song i've been singing

for a long time now...maybe one month or more...when i first heard this

song from a TV show...its like i fell in love with this song...i dunno

why exactly...but my sister is teasing me everytime i sing it...you

know, the message of the song is quite hurtful...and my sister says

that anyone who sings it is pathetic, thinking of rekindling a feeling

from an old love...but, hey! i beg to differ!!! i just love the

song...as it is...you know, the melody, the tempo..just right..

so here it is...you might like it as well...

here i am

playing with those memories again

and just when i thought time has set me free

those thoughts of you keep taunting me

holding you

a feeling i never outgrew

though each and every part of me has tried

only you can fill that space inside

so there's no sense pretending

my heart is not mending

just when i thought i was over you

just when i thought i could stand on my own

oh baby, those memories come crashing through

and i just can't go on without you

on my own

ive tried to make the best of it alone

I've done everything I can to ease the pain

But only you can stop the rain

I just can't live without you

I miss everything about you

(Chorus)

Just when I thought I was over you

And just when I thought I could stand on my own

Oh baby those memories come crashing through

And I just can't go on without

Go on without

It's just no good without you

Without you, without you, without you

Oh baby, those memories come crashing through

And I just can't go on without, you

looks like we made it...look how far we've come my baby=)

that's right...you're still the one...with some mere chance or destined

fate, that song, the song ive been singing since i was in shower this

morning, has somehow generalized everything for today..

      

it was so weird...i finished all my requirements today...which enabled

me to get my much coveted report card...bwahahahaha....i didn't really

think i could have done it...but then, i did it..thanks to my classmates

   

   well, nothing much happened today...just the usual...i went to

school..ate lunch...and went home...it was just a routine..and you know

very well that i rili do hate routines...grrrr....

       as for

my grades...they're fine...not really fine-fine...they are fine as in

fine-expected...lol...just an add on, i got my certificate of good

moral today..together with my graduation pictures...

       i

dunno how i should feel at this moment...but honestly, i feel empty...i

mean, nothing's bothering me as of the moment and there's nothing i

want, need...et.al...still got goodbye hungover...because as i sed

gudbye to my friends this afternoon, i realized that the next day that

we will see each other will be on the 19th...that's for my COCOSA

friends..my normal friends,on the other hand...well, i don't really

know if im still gonna see them..huhuh...

well,,,till here...

mwah...

*SOPHIA*

i miss you like crazy...=(

            hi, blog....omigod...i miss you...(TO THE 11TH POWER!!!)

          i wanna apologize for

not writing in here for so long...for me, it has been centuries...it's

because i got soooo god damn pissed with

a series of unfortunate events in my life...however...i realized

something...i realized just this morning that they waren't so bad after

all...i mean, i got a great deal of problems lately but i also had a

dose or shall i say, even an overdose of funfilled memories..memories that i will never forget my whole life...

           lately, i have been

dealing problems in school..i mean, after graduation...i expected to

get away and have a sweet escape of high school life but to my dismay,

it did not come true! sh**!..well, to depression,

my report card will not be released if i won't comply with all the

requirements, pay all my fees, and satisfy the teachers with whatsoever

it is that they want me to do for them...i know, you may think that it

sucks...well,yeah, it does...lol

            and also, many things happened during my so-called, "HIATUS" or "BLOG ABSENCE"...or

whatever it is that you call it....a series of events happend...well,

both fortunate and the not-so-fortunate events...to name a few: RETREAT, SENIOR'S OUTING, MY FIRST EVER GRADUATION ...bla bla bla....a

lot more...about graduation, all i got was the feeling of saying, "oh,

so that was what you call graduation"...hahahah..really,...no

kidding...but just for a teaser, i want you to know that i

cried...huhuhu...you

may see in one of my pictures here that my make-up was sumkinda ruined

by the tears...good thing my make-up artist used waterproof masscara on

me...i owe him bigtime, or else...hah!

        as for now..i am on the process of getting over on so many things...getting over highschool, friends, old school...et. Al.....

          but today, i went to

USLS for my college application..gosh, it felt so good, you know,

me-processing-my-own-application kinda thing...for me, it rocks!!!!...i

will be enroled in the college of arts and sciences under the course of

LIACOM...having mass communication and marketing as my two major

subjects...bwahahahhaahah.....! i can feel the college feeling right

under my skin...like, just under my epidermis...what?!lol...

            i want you to wish me luck , for me to get my report card ASAP...and

for me to process my application in a fast and easy way..and of

course...i don't need luck for college...because i know i already have

it! hahah..mwah! luvyah...till next time....

*sophia*

the asterisk is starting to work

          

today is the official start of the 40 days of lent and i am willing to make sacrifices...but not too much...God forbid

         

in accordance with

the 40 days of lent, my classmates and i had a pilgrimage walk

yesterday...we took more than 100, 000 steps...( in hiligaynon, shin

mil ka tikang!...lol! )or even more...we had more than 5

kilometers...it was nothing...nothing but pain!!!but honestly, i didn't

feel much pain in the legs or in any part of the body...i didn't mind

the pain..what frustrated me most was the heat of the blazing sun...it

was very conspicuous that a person might get blinded or something ...we

were there in the streets...exposing our bodies under the heat of the

sun...we were nothing more like vagabonds..searching for a place to

settle...i mean, not that i hate getting a tan or whatsoever..its just

that it hurts...knowing that you've tried to hide from the heat of the

sun for months and there you are, putting it all to

waste...anyway...change topic...

            

when it was the first

day of school for the senior year, our economics teacher said something

about the asterisk...its like, a story..our story...my friends were

from the different tips of the ends of the asterisk and we come to a

certain point wherein we all meet and have fun...and there will also

come to a point that the happy days will be over...and i think, now is

the time...i dont feel fun anymore...i do sometimes but its not abslute

since i think about grades, college, life, love, and the like....but i

know that these are all part of growing up and i have nothing to do but

to accept..although i know that it hurts...anyway, "love hurts" ...its

just like a disease..a contagious one...but there is no other remedy

for love but to love more...

            

i have this friend,

she said she feels different right now...she's is cloud nine..and i

couldn't be any happier...what a good gift for valentines- for her to

find "THE ONE"...as for me, well, still waiting...ahhahah...indeed, for

you to forget a past love, you must find a new one to take his

place.....have i found the new one? can't answer...only heaven knows

*KAMZ*

i watched an R18 movie!!!---I LOVE IT!!!

       

yeah, last nyt my friend called me up and asked me if i could go with her and the others to watch this movie, sweeney todd...we've

already talked about this months ago that we are gonna watch this movie

because of the cast, the story, everything...but the problem was, i

wasn't able to ask permission from my mom...and so i asked myself,

should i make up stories again..so that she would allow me to go out? i

decided that probably i will...anyway, im already a grown up...yeah, i

feel like a grown up already...u know...doing stuff that grown ups

usually do...this week i went to a party of a friend where we drank

liquor and smoked (don't worry, not too many sticks...I AM NOT A SMOKER!!!...remember

that) we did all those things just for fun...and last week, i went home

at already 1pm...isn't that cool, huh?! i feel like my parents trust

me...i hope what i feel is right...anyway..going back to the movie

stuff...

         

so today, i asked my mom

to give me some money because gonna make project and go to a friend's

house to finish it...yeah, right, project AKA

lakwatsa...hahahhhaa.....and so i left the house at around 1:30 pm and

headed my way off to the mall..when i arrived, i was dumbfounded

knowing that the movie is R18..i mean, not that its pornographic or

sumthing..however it sumkinda sadistic..it featured lots of killings..i

texted my friends to wear their most mature looking clothes and look as

old as possible...lol...we just tricked the lady at the ticket counter

and guess what? we got in!!! it was fun...knowing that we could pass

for 18-looking people..hahhahah.... and i really enjoyed the movie.

..my mom believes i made a stupid proj but the truth is, i did not...

         

i went home really

really early....like 6pm..just wish me luck tomorrow, im going to

bonn's church together with the other iip pals...nikki. lai, krish,

melai...may God bless us ..

ciao!!!

*KAMZ*

i wanna get this over with---HIGH SCHOOL!!!

         

  They say that high

school years are the best years of one's life...yeah, right...i was

very close to believing this statement until i got to the last year of

high school...

- high school is nice because you get to experience a lot= i

agree because i have really experienced a lot of thing...new

things...you know, having new friends, a new environment, new

challenges, hardships

- you get to the peak of your love life= i

dont know if i should agree because i am really an antagonist when it

comes to love....i hate it!!! i used to like it once...but thinking

about mushy things...- ewwww!!!  not that i haven't been into any

relationship or something but its just that i get hurt everytime...its

as if i am meant to be left by people i love, especially the

guys...they-are-all-the-same concept is true! i thought its not but

now, i certainly, certifiably agree!!!! don't you? well, if you don'f,

hello, earth calling, wake up!!!!!

- in high school you develop into a new you= i

agree. when i stepped into the high school worl, well, i wasnt like

this...certainly not like this...i became even worse! its like i

morphed into a different kind of human being...a human being that is so

mad of the world, like a villain, that is! i started to hate people for

no reason at all, i started to be a bitch and worst , a plastic!

bwahahahha....(evil laugh there)

- you get lower grades compared to elementary- well,

when i was in elementary, 6th grade to be exact, i was like, one of the

top students of my school - USLS...but now, the tables have turned

upside down...not that im failing or anything but i get reaalllly...

reallly looooww grades...i mean, i still belong to the top class but my

grades are there down the drain...i think its because of pressure, i

get to participate in many orgs and excel in them however, i get tired

of studying..hahahhaha....and also, one factor is that high school is

really one step or shall i say, one big giant step away from

elementary...elem was just like addition, subtraction, ....in high

school ,you got sine, consince, momentum, probability, inverse

functions...wow, amazing!!!!!!

well. now, im just a few days away

from graduation and i really want to hurry things...because its like i

get hurt everyday...i get hurt by the emotions i feel, everyday its

like i have a lot of emotions- i feel sad, happy, anxious, and all

those!!!!so, i just want to get it over with...you

know...escaping....so, i just hope im gonna survive this rain...what?

hahahaha...

*KAMZ*

"trust" i gained it back!!!

last night was one of the

highest points in my life...i had an amazing experience watching and

listening to my idol, miss lea salong sing in front of my very

eyes...it was a dream come true seeing her in persong though not that

close...she is really a diamond in the rough!!!so d*** talented...i

have no idea where she gets all those air ...anyway..

 

last night was also special since it was the first time my mom allowed

me to go home alone or with friends at around 1 in the morning...no

kidding!!! i mean, i am allowed to go out with friends before provided

that i would be fetched by my mom for her to bring me home...i would

call her when i need to come home already...yes, even at 8:oopm...i

know, you might say im such a baby...its just that i ve done so many

things before that have caused my parents not to trust me...i mean, you

know, ive had "illegal" relationships and until now, they still don't

know even a single bit about it...so ,,better keep your mouth shut

okay?!lol!

   

and

so, i just enjoyed last night with the company of friends and it was

like so amazing!!!not amazing for being there enjoying and all but

amazing in the sense that hey, i gained my parents' trust bacK!!!!it

feels really good inside...

   

   i didnt do anything that couldve made my parents upset..i was one

gud girl last night..i know, its hard to believe...i hope this trust

thingie is gonna be with me for a long long time...especially a few

months from now that im gonna be in college already...whoo! big shocker

there! yah, im gonna be like a grown-up..talk and dress like a grown-up

although i know its hard to think like a grown-up but i swear that im

gonna do my very best...

   

    keep it up!.i say this line to myself!!!haahahahah....follow my footsteps..theyre really good...lol

ciao!!!

*KAMZ*

Im getting married!!!

            

yes, no kidding i am really getting married...those who do not believe, well, CURSE YOU TO DEATH!!! ...but wait, i dont just curse people...anyway, im gonna explain my wedding plans so read and pay attention so well...(hahha...as if!)

             This is it ...this

day was really one of the most booooring days of the century..one of

the most tiring and frustrating too..a lot of disappointments in my

part....it started with a fight i had with a total stranger...she was

like cursing me!!!could

you imagine...and it was seven in the morning...but then again...i

didn't stoop down to her level....which is level negative 59 to the

11th power...!!!curse my ass, you bitch!!!

             

anyway...the day

continued when we had a quiz in trigonometry...it was so unfair on our

part that the teacher gave us a quiz during an exam week...that is so

against the rule!!!i went to the photocopier during lunch to have

reviewers photocopied...i reproduced about 35 copies and i paid for all

of them...that was 200+ pesos...it really hurt...na-ibanan naman ang

kaban ko...some of my classmates paid but

there were really a lot hu just got copies without

paying...haaayy...god watches anyway....the bullshit in my day

continued in bookkeeping...we had a lot...and i really mean a lot of

activities---the boring ones!!!after that da** subject was religion

wherein we had a really surprise quiz...it was over fifteen but we just

had scores  like 1, 2, 3 ,4...and that's it...we were

so unprepared ....economics...a classmate of mine cried...yes, just out

of the blue when we teased him that he was gay???...how imature is

that??...nooooooo...just kidding...i respect him..his feelings...and

his uniqueness...

             

by the way, i

lost my pen...the best pen in the world....no kidding,,,but its ok...i

really dont give a sh** over petty things...you know me...

             and about my blog

title...the-me-getting-married-thing....out of the so-called

"boringness" of bookkeeping this afternoon,out of the blue, i asked me

seatmates..., "what if im gonna be an old maid?"...well, they won't believe

it!!!and you know what...? neither do I !!! hahahhahah!!!me, an old

maid? eewww! id rather stick pins in my eyes...and so, right at that

very moment..i promised to my friends that when i reach the age of

thirty and im still single..i should commit harakiri...(thats suicide

in japanese)..and maybe ull think that like the usual, im just gonna

say my famous lines,

"i lied"? no .that's not gonna happen...im not lying this time...this

is for real...im gonna jump of a cliff, slice myself into two or

something..well, look on the bright sided...i still have 13 years to

go...hahah...that's long enuf to find a partner you think?! but right

now..i am announcing that i am really getting married...

               

we practiced

tonight for tomorrows activities and i hopw were gonna surpass it with

flying colors...i really wanna get it over with..gudluck to moi!!!

x0x0

*KAMZ*